LOVE LOVE LOVE

I love being in love. The feeling of love radiating from me and given back to me like a perfect gift sent from the divine. My favorite part about love is experiencing the manifestation of greater love beyond myself- yes I need another. I am a "feeler" and when I feel love deeply within my soul it takes me to a place that only God knows. And I'm grateful for an inner knowingness of what my heart yearns for- LOVE. When I'm filled with a feeling of love it overtakes me and seeps through and warmly embraces another. I like passing around love- this world needs more of it. I have manifested for myself the loving relationship I've desired for several years and attracted a man who far exceeds what I thought I wanted- he is what I need.

I remember when the shift happened, I even remember when the universe responded to my cries (after being single for what I felt was a long time). It was January 2007 when an extraordinary man came into my life. But just a month before I had called out to LOVE..."I want to experience more love in my life, and I'm open to receive and give more love." It was that simple but magnificent thought that sent my life down a new path- a better path than I had imagined.

Then came Jazzy (my daughter) born November 2008, a greater gift of love- well I asked for more- and though I love her father, being a mom- this love I'm certain must transcend passed the ages. I will be loving this child beyond this lifetime- I am certain. Having a child has brought me to a beautiful place where everything makes sense even in the uncertainties of newness. She turns my world around then makes it brand new again. The best feeling I get as a mom (and I must admit I love it) is when she wakes up from a nap and find me there- she looks up at me smiling- and it warms my heart- I've just received a gift from love- a wonderful feeling called Joy.

But I want to talk about her father as I honor him for being such a hardworking provider and not only a "good man" but a good daddy (Happy Father's Day hun!). He has given me the opportunity to be a stay-at-home mom and see my daughter first precious moments. I'm truly blessed. But! I know I'm in love if just the movement of his lips makes me feel loving toward him. I love loving him and well he just can't get enough of it- so were perfect for each other. The best part about being with him is that he makes me better then before. Everything about our relationship has grown in a positive direction. He even challenges me not to forget about my goals and dreams I had before given birth to our daughter- so here I am writing- something I use to talk about all the time when we first met that I put on the back burner when I became pregnant.

How did I do this? Well! It was more than positive thinking or reciting affirmations- it was a firm belief in my ability to have that which I was asking for-making a choice to LOVE and BE LOVED. Frankly, I believed I deserved love- that I was worthy of a LOVE I had yet to experience but knew existed, and that it was apart of my life's purpose to have even greater love. It definitely took me some time spend alone and loving on me but Frank and Jazzy were both worth the wait.