FAITH

I have begun what I now know can be a stressful journey- wedding planning. I have been through a range of emotions today from excited, to disappointed, to discouraged, to a still place, to a quiet revelation, and then finally back to ease. Even with all the emotions I felt throughout the day it was love that kept me. I felt it at my center even when the stress of wedding planning began to overwhelm me. I am so grateful even to know stress, because without it how would I trust the end result, which for me has always worked in my favor. I think it is my faith that keeps me trusting and the confidence I have built in the creator of my faith.

I was having an interesting conversation with my fiancee' the past few days, as we are taking our own leap of faith. He says that to get married takes faith even when you love someone it is faith that gives you the courage to face the unknown. It is because of our recent conversations in faith that our relationship has grown to move to the ultimate commitment- saying "I do for a lifetime". I must admit that I had my own fears about saying I do for a lifetime, even though I love my fiancee' dearly something was keeping me from moving forward.

I am writing a book on creating more love because I feel it is connected to my purpose- to write. However, recently I started to be hunted by my own advice. Was I living up to my values? as I was telling others to stand up for what they believe and I felt that I was not living my truth as well. I don't like to give advice that I am not living, so I have been forced to confront my own reasons for not doing what I believe. I was not acting in faith. But no longer! as my time in reflection has lead me to a deep surrender of my fears and a rebirth of love.

My sister made a profound statement to me the other day "The meaning of life is to experience love and to love". I completely agree as everyone in life can grow in more love for themselves, their environment, and ultimately the world.

I just hope that I take faith with me so that I can contribute and be the best person I can be.